Monday, November 14, 2011

Hemmed In

Have you ever had one of those 'blah' days?   The ones with the uncomfortable, unpleasant, unidentifiable sort of a nagging?  Or maybe it's a longing.  I'm not sure.

Life is basically good.  :)  I'm low maintenance.  I don't require anything.  I'm typically an optimist and I see hope and promise; I find the silver lining.  Oh, I can think of a few things that are needing to be done, and I can think of a few things that are truly bothering me and causing me some trouble, but they aren't earth shattering, and I know I'll get beyond, blah, blah, blah.  I can not link this uneasy feeling to any one thing.  None of the specifics seem to be the real source of the turbulence.

I am learning and growing.  I am planning and dreaming.  What am I missing here?  Anything?

I have never been a great sit-and-waiter.  I am a doer.  When things need to be done I would just as soon get them done.  This time, however, I can't seem to gain any control over any of it.  I'm not even exactly sure what 'it' is!  Everything is in someone else's hands, and I can't muscle my way in or through anything, so I'm sidelined.  I'm ready, but held back.

Whoa, girl.   Whoa......